What a Weekend!

I had such a great weekend! I LOVED the General Relief Society Meeting! I loved going with my mom and my sister Shellee and our good friend Stephanie. I loved President Uchtdorf's talk about Forget Me Nots. I went to the meeting feeling so low! I had had a terrible weekend. Our Suburban needs to be fixed and it is going to cost over $1,000. So I was pretty down. Then right before we went Chase grabbed Wyatts glasses and broke them! I was so discouraged! I went to the meeting seeking solace and refuge from my troubles. It totally worked! I was praying that I would feel spiritually fed. I feel like the meeting was intended for me! It was incredible. I grabbed my mom's notebook and ripped out pages so that I could take notes. I just cannot wait for Conference now. I want to record a quote that really hit home for me from Sylvia Allred

"Charity is having patience for people who have let us down"

I truly felt the importance of this message. I have definately been let down by people I loved. BUT I have also let many others down. The one good thing is how strong I have become. A few months ago this quote would have made me feel terrible. Right now this makes me realize how wonderful the Gospel is! How blessed I am to have this feeling. I feel peace and more importantly LOVED! I still have my days but I am so happy to know these truths!

Another quote this one from Elder Uchtdorf that really hit me was

"No matter how dark the days may seem. He loves you with an infinate Love."

We are not forgotten. We are constantly being loved and rooted for. He wants all his children to return again. What an incredible feeling!

"The Love of the Savior is redemptive of your shortcomings!"

I will forever be thankful that I went to the meeting. I needed to record the feelings that I felt that night.

On Sunday we had our Primary Program and it was Incredible! I was crying all through Scripture Power which really suprised me. I have heard that song SO many times. It has never touched me like yesterday though. To see all these beautiful young children raising their scriptures as one. They LOVE the scriptures. They are the future. And they are so strong and so faithful! I am so lucky to have three of those primary kids as my own. I loved watching it. It was the first time in 16 years that I was able to watch it. I have always been a teacher. I loved being able to listen to the spirit there. I loved this weekend. I want to bottle it up and keep it forever!

Toothless Wonder!

My poor sweet little Wyatt had to have surgery this morning on his mouth. They told me he needed a root canal but when they tried to do x-ray's last week his mouth was too small to get a good picture. This morning we went and he went under anesthesia and they redid the x-ray. He ended up with 3 root canals, 4 fillings and they had to pull his front tooth.

He did so good! He was so hilarious though. When we were sitting there waiting for his anesthesia to kick in he was hilarious. He kept saying "hey mom remember my brother? Whats his name?" I would say it is Cole and he said "oh yeah thats right!" When I asked what he wanted to say about Cole he said "thats it. He's Cole!" :) It was like he was drunk. He kept trying to stand up and then he would fall over. When he looked up on the wall he saw a picture and he said "OH a BED!" He was so cute and so small. It really makes you realize how fragile and little they really are. I am so glad that everything went well. He will feel so much better when the soreness is gone.

When Will it End?

I am getting so tired of being depressed. I can be having the best day and suddenly WHAM! I am in the saddest mood. I am sure it totally affects my kids. They are all having a hard time right now. I am pretty positive it is my fault. How can you feel secure when your mom is so up and down? I wish I knew what to do. I am not ok with taking meds anymore. I don't like what they do to my brain. I try to give service, maybe I need to give more. I just can't get out of it. I wish there was a way to just get better. I try so hard especially in front of the kids. The other day I realized that my sudden recluse behavior has caused my kids to lose most of their friends. They want to go play and have fun but with who? I feel so bad, all the time. I just wish everything would be ok.

Thankful Heart

Today I am so incredibly thankful for Andrew. He is my rock, my friend, my sounding board, and my everything. He is willing to help even when he doesn't feel well. On Saturday I felt so sick! Andrew let me sleep all afternoon while he cleaned out the kitchen cabinets and cleaned the stove and oven and pulled it out and cleaned everything. I was dreading this job! I felt so loved when he did it while I was asleep. The kids were so helpful and together they got the job done. On Sunday Chase got sick and threw up all over me! Andrew is so good to help with the kids when they don't feel good. He is our in house doctor :)

Today he took Cole, Kiley and Wyatt to the dollar movie so that they could have fun today for the holiday. I love that he tries to be involved with them and all that is going on in their lives. He is such a good dad. He is such a good example to them and I am thankful he has chosen to be with me. Even when I am crazy and he has to help pick up the pieces. He is amazing. I love him and can't believe I get to be together forever. How lucky am I?

Great Weekend!

Friday Night I went with Andrew to see Josh Groban in concert. It was so amazing. How many singers sound better in person than they do on CD? He was incredible. Not to mention funny! I felt so blessed to be there, and for FREE! ;) It feels like a dream it all happened so fast! I loved having a perfect date night with the Love of my Life! I even cried when Josh sang "You Are Loved" I think this is going to be my new anthem. If you don't know the song check it out on You Tube. It sums up my life. I am so glad that I was able to go.

On Saturday I had so much fun with my mom and sister. We went and painted popcorn bowls. Then went to lunch. It has been so long since we have hung out together. I just had such a fun weekend. It has been a long time since I have just relaxed and enjoyed myself and felt like me.

WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER!

I was sitting in my house enjoying the quiet while Chase took a nap and playing on Facebook when I notice a message from Mix969 offering free tickets to JOSH GROBAN! You had to be caller whatever, there were 4 numbers. The last one was 24. I called and thought surely this is over it had been 4 minutes. I called on the offchance it was still going and the guy says "What would you say if I said you were caller 24?" I said "you would be my new best friend!" he said "I guess you got yourself a new best friend!!" WHAT! I won!!!!!! Best date night EVER!

Lost

I have some good days and some really rough days. Mostly I just feel lost.