Friends

I have gone through quite a eye opening week. Things that I thought were true aren't and vice versa. It is important to know who your friends are and more importantly to be a good friend to others. I hope that I am a good friend to those I love and I resolve to do better.

I have a real desire to have true friendships around me and to surround myself and my family with those that have a positive effect on those around me. To these people I thank you and I love you. I hope to be better about being there for them.

I love my family. Andrew is amazing. He is my rock and my very best friend. I feel incredibly blessed to have him in my life. I love my children. They make me laugh, smile and sometimes cry. I love them so much. I hope to be a better example to them and I hope that they too will build lasting friendships because they are priceless.

Motherhood

I have been pretty down lately but one thing has never changed. My LOVE for my family. I have amazing children that can make me smile no matter what! They are amazing.

Cole is a fantastic helper. He helps me with the other kids, he always takes out the trash and he loves to do dishes! He is very competitive which works to my advantage. All I have to say is lets see if you can do this faster. He is always happy to do anything to make someone happy.

Kiley is a bundle of happiness. She loves to show her dimples and her favorite thing to do is smile. She is a brave little girl. She just had her teeth pulled on Wednesday and she was so good. I was amazed how brave she was while the whole thing was going on. I was a bigger wreck than her.

Wyatt is my little buddy. Every morning he comes in my room to give me a kiss. He then immediately asks if we can go see grandpa! If I say no then he yells at me "Mom! You broke your promise!" I don't know what promises I have been making but apparently I broke it. His new thing is if you ask if you can have a bite of whatever he has he will cough all over it and then say "oops, you can't have any cause I coughed one every single one!" This cracks me up every time. His biggest accomplishment this week is that he was determined to ride a two wheeled bike because he is "hoomongous!" So he got on Kileys BIG bike and after Andrew straightened the wheel he rode it down the street. FIRST try! I don't know why I was suprised but I was. He can't even peddle the whole wheel around he just catches the other peddal. Crazy kid.

Chase is a fabulous baby. I LOVE his smiley face. You can actually hear him smile :) He is such a good baby and makes our home that much brighter. He hasn't been here that long but I can't remember life without him.

I am one lucky mom and when I feel down I just have to look at my kids and remember that I have it pretty good! I love them with all my heart. Andrew is a wonderful father and husband and I am blessed to have him in my life.

Who?

Do you ever feel obsolete? I do. I feel like nothing I do is good enough. The things that I need are on the back burner and forgotten. I know as a mother that these things happen but it seems a bit too much right now. I forgot what it is like to be a person. To laugh and to enjoy myself. Yes, I find joy in motherhood. But who am I? I wish I could remember. And what if who I was isn't good enough? I guess I am lost.

What a crazy Day!

This morning I was mopping the floor and suddenly I felt so strongly that something was horribly wrong! I freaked out. Dad had had a little surgery this morning so of course I called him immediately. He was fine. Groggy but fine. Mom wasn't home so I called her. Fine. So then I called Andrew. You guessed it... he was fine. My sister Shellee is pregnant and it isn't an easy pregnancy so I called her. Fine. Then I started texting. I called Andrew's mom. Fine. I texted almost everyone I could think of. Of course it was the last person I called because why would I call anyone else?

I had a friend having a really hard day. This economy is BAD! I had a sister who probably needed to talk and turns out Kiley was in the Nurse's office right as my feeling came. The good thing that came out of this. I talked to almost everyone I knew today. I am glad that everyone is okay. I hope that we can keep the people affected by this economy in our prayers and in our hearts.

Now I need a nap. All this worrying has exhausted me!

Amazing

Yesterday we went to Andrew's sister's house for a birthday/Easter celebration. It was her son's 4th birthday so we had birthday cupcakes and an easter egg hunt. While we were visiting the kids went out back to play and throw the football around. Uncle Jeff went out to play with all the kids. Jeff threw the ball to Wyatt and was suprised when he caught it so Jeff moved back and threw it a little harder and Wyatt caught it again. After a few more time of them throwing and catching Jeff came in amazed that Wyatt could catch the ball so well. A few minutes later Wyatt came in and said "mom Jeff can really throw the ball!" I laughed so hard at his amazement at Jeff's ability to throw a ball was just as amazed as Jeff with Wyatt catching the ball. Truly funny.

He LIVES!

Last night we took the kids to the Easter Pageant with our wonderful friends the Jones' family. When we were waiting for it to start I was convinced that the kids would be so hyper that we wouldn't be able to get them to sit still during the performance. When Cole was three years old I had an amazing experience when Cole yelled at the "bad guys" to "Leave MY Jesus ALONE!" at the end of that performance when Jesus is resurrected Cole yelled "YAY! HE made it!"

Now Wyatt is three years old so I thought I would have a spiritual experience with him too. Hahaha nope! He asked during the whole performance if Jesus was dead yet. He really didn't like it when they beat him. Wyatt said "Jesus just needs to come sit next to me! I would be nice to him." That was priceless. He loved the Angels. In the end he was so excited to see Jesus back to life (as he says it) and then to top it off he yells "Jesus can FLY like SUPERMAN!??" Looks like we need to have a little talk :)

Tender Moments

So...lately I have been feeling very down. I feel like I am a terrible mother who just yells at the kids and that I can't keep up with the house. Generally I feel worthless. Last night I walked into the sweetest moment.

Cole and Wyatt were snuggled up together on the couch an Cole was reading to Wyatt. The book was about airplanes and Wyatt kept asking Cole questions. All of a sudden I hear Wyatt say to Cole "you are the best big bruver. You know EVERYTHING!" It was so cute! In this very moment I felt so blessed to be these incredible boys mother.