Progress

As you can tell I have done A LOT of soul searching lately... I must say, I am very pleased with the progress I have made. I am a lot more grateful for the blessings in my life. I am so much more aware of things I can improve on and I am so thankful for good people in my life. So much of our time is spent taking for granted the little things in our lives. I am thankful and feel lucky to have this time to reflect and learn for myself what I want in my life. I am so thankful for the ups and downs in my life so that now I can realize how good it really can be. I am blessed to have an amazing family and friends that support and love me no matter what :) I am one lucky woman!

Growing Up

In the past few months I have aged at a rapid pace. There are many MANY things I have learned, some of them by force, and most of them by choice. I am so ashamed at my behavior. I have always thought it was good nature and fun to be sarcastic and silly. What if the person on the other end of it didn't think so? What if my actions and "silliness" caused someone else pain? How selfish and rude of me. I have always had a sharp tongue. I have always lashed first before someone could hurt me. I used to think this was part of my "charm." Truth is there is nothing charming about making someone else feel less than amazing and cherished. I am humbled and mortified by my past silliness. I have learned quite a lesson. I love those around me. I WANT them to feel cherished and loved because they are. I apologize to those I have "stung" with my sharp tongue. I am striving to be better and I am thankful for the moments of clarity when I can learn and grow. What a blessing it is that we can constantly learn and become better people.

Dreams

Have you ever had dreams that rock you to the core? I have lately been having these crazy dreams. I keep telling myself they are just dreams and that they are no big deal. Problem is they affect my entire being. I try so hard to not let them but it is so HARD. I feel bad because I feel like they sometimes take over my day or a few days of my life and attitude. What are your thoughts on dreams??

Service

This morning was our turn to help clean the church. I was tired and Andrew had to work today so I thought we might not go. The kids were appalled by this! WHAT? But it's our TURN! How can you deny them the opportunity to serve the church in this capacity? I quickly got up and got ready so that we could go. They LOVED it! They washed all the windows outside and were so proud. I vaccumed and Chase sat in his stroller observing. I must say, I am embarassed by my attitude to just "skip" it. I am so glad that we went and I am so thankful for the examples my kids are to me every day.

Good People

I was invited to a girls night last night called Conference Club. What is Conference Club you ask? Well, it is where they pick a talk from the latest Conference Ensign and they discuss it. I thought sure I'll go see what its all about. I must say it was so nice to be in a room with women who are doing their best to live by their standards. They were an impressive group. I am glad I went. I am glad to realize that in order to have fun we don't have to go out and do dumb things...We can sit and discuss Gospel Principles and be Spiritually Edified! I had fun and I am glad I went. I think it is wonderful to realize that there really are wonderful examples out there. Thanks for letting me crash the party :)

I Love these Kids! I am so lucky to be their mom and be able to see them grow up ito such wonderful people! I am in love!!!

Little Talker

Our sweet Chase has finally found his voice! I swear it is the cutest sweetest sound in the whole world. I love hearing him "practice" his words. It is so much fun. All the other kids were talking way before now but let me tell ya, it was worth the wait! :) He is so much fun and he has the funnest little sense of humor. I am so lucky that I am his mom! He melts my heart!